My clean slate

Posted on January 11, 2011 in For Real | 414 Encouraged Comments

I was married at 25 years old. That seems so young now, looking back on it. But, I graduated from college, served a few years as a Naval Officer and like any good southern girl, found me a man to marry! I mean, that was the next logical step, right? Yes, at that time in my life it was. Just like having a baby before I was 30 made so much sense. And none of those decisions were wrong. Nor do I regret a single one of them.

I left my husband when I found out he was cheating on me. No, don’t feel sorry for me. It was the best thing that could have happened. I was miserable. I was living a life for him, not being true to myself and not living to my full potential. I was a good mom, but not a happy mom. I was a good friend, but not a sincere one. I had to get out of that life. And I am so thankful that he was the one who cheated so I could leave that life behind me.

So I moved home. At 31 years old, I moved to Franklin into a condo that my little brother owns. I relied on my family for support, both emotionally and financially. I had to let go of control issues I battled with for years. I started realizing how unhappy I was being in marriage that didn’t allow me to be myself. And I found a life that brought out the happiness that had been suffocating for years. My relationship with my daughter blossomed, and I started feeling like a great mother. I grew closer with my parents, and cherish every second I get to spend with them. I bonded with my little brother, who at one time in my life, I didn’t speak to for over a year. And he wanted me to join his company. He trusted me to build a legacy with him.

This is my destiny. The journey as a navy brat, spoiled Ole Miss girl, to a sometimes over bearing Naval Officer to a controlling wife and frustrated mother led me to Franklin, TN. I am a true friend, a patient mother, a humble sister, a thankful daughter, a happy girlfriend and most importantly, a self-aware woman.

As of today, I am divorced. One part of my journey has ended, and I can’t wait for the rest of my story to continue. I will still make mistakes, as that is the only way to grow. And I won’t regret those either. I will learn from them and use them as a lesson for my daughter. I am so blessed by my friends and family and I can’t wait to live my life to the fullest. 1/11/11 brings with it a clean slate and I am ready to fill it up with beautiful stories and life lessons.

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